Why I am fat… again

Those words were quite hard to type. I can’t believe I am here again. Fat.

If this is something that you are not interested in, kindly move a long. The reason I am sharing this, is to hold myself accountable and to share my journey for those of you who find themselves feeling fat, ugly and hopeless. Perhaps this post will help you not feel quite so alone in your struggles.

I’ve struggled with my weight most of my life. I gained a lot of weight during and after my pregnancy and I finally really did something about in 2014 and I lost a lot of weight. Read about it HERE. I just reread that post myself and I still can’t really believe what I have done to myself.

I was happy, healthy, moderately fit and happy with the way I looked. Then…

In February 2015 I landed up in hospital and had to undergo spinal surgery. That meant that I was on my back for 8 weeks. It also meant that I was no longer allowed to run or do boot camp. I was also not allowed to pick up my child or vacuum the house. I am still not really supposed to be doing most of those things. My heart was broken.

And what do I do when my heart is sore? I eat. And today I have regained all of the weight I lost in 2014 and more!

Over the last year I have tried to lose weight many times. All unsuccessful. And every time something ‘bad’ happened, I would head to the fridge. This has to stop.

I want to be healthy. I want to live an active life. I want to be there for my child. I want to feel comfortable in my own body. And I want to look good!

Now, you are probably wondering how I’m going to do this?

I have been chosen as 1 of 30 contestants to take part in the Slender Challenge competition sponsored by Health Renewal.

The slender challenge

Slender Challenge 8 kicked off today.

We are following the Body Renewal Medical Weight Loss program and you can follow our 12 week weight loss journey HERE.

Wish me luck. I hope this is the last time I ever have to ask for that!


16 Replies to “Why I am fat… again”

  1. Your attitude is the right one. :) Well done! Stay focused on your goal. First step is to get your mind into shape. You’ll see, the body will respond automatically. Xxx

  2. Reading your blog resonated with me in every single way! Congrats on re-taking that first step. I too am in the same boat – blog about it, lose weight, and then eat my feelings. Your post- pics when you had lost the weight were amazing! Good luck for the new journey – keep us updated!

  3. Fat? i couldn’t stop laughing at the word itself but i wish you nothing but the best in your 12 week weight loss journey i know how good life can be sometimes but i did manage to also loose my baby fat in 2014 and now i am healthy and happy..

    :) :)

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